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I wasn't able to go through with it. I just couldn't do it. I know it would hurt like hell, and I guess..It just scared me too much. I'm okay, for now I think. I'm so sorry I've been so selfish. I didn't even consider anyone elses' feelings. I'm sorry. I won't ever do that again, because fuck I scared myself way too much. I just need to relax and talk to people about this stuff, not just my family. I know this is kind of a sudden update, but..I had to let people know I was fine. I'm sorry. I don't know if I can bring myself to stay on here for long, or even try to do productive stuff, but..I can try. It'll just take me a long time.
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This site is changing sooo much. Woah man.
Another little update. Summer is kickass. Guy spending lots of time with me. Crapped out on drawing. Sorry guys. Last update for a while, mobile internet is being taken away. Sorry. :(
Hey woah.
Deviantart, stop changing. I'm doing good. Pretty healthy. I just woke up, actually. Haha.. I'm sleepin to much. Whatever. Just teensy weensy update. Still with the guy, thankfully. Sleepin right next to me, haha. Just poppin in, I guess. I forgot about this account, actually. It slipped my mind for a little. But I won't be back still. Not allowed to be on the computer yet. On my phone now. So uh, bye guys. Talk to you all again sometime in the next few months.
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Cause I said I needed to be more active. A little update. I've been feeling a bit better lately, I'm aloud to use and keep my phone without giving it up at night now. I've got a boyfriend, too. Been with him for a while, but never brought it up. Glad he lived. He comes over occasionally to visit, only on the weekends though. I'm just feeling a bit more lively and happy. It's mostly thanks to you guys on here. So yeah. just wanted to give a tiny update.
Last of the updates.
By last, I mean I'm not going to be updating anymore. So far, I've tried to kill myself three times, twice by hanging, and once by overdose. But it seems my mom has a very watchful eye over me, or someone else comes along and stops me. I don't think I'll overdose this time; Having your stomach pumped fucking hurts. I want to die in silence, not have someone interrupt me. I know I'm taking the cheaters' way out, but I don't care. Living is too painful anymore. I know people care about me, I just don't want to be in their lives again. All I ever do is complain and whine about how much everything hurts. It's too hard for me to live anymore. I'm
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oh my fuck, bro, I just read the journal before this and I
I'm so glad you didn't go through with it
We'd miss you too much QmQ
Glad to know you're ok
Well not 110% ok you know but
Not dead that's something LOL
But in all seriousness, yeah, talk to your pals about it too, not just your parents!
Also, good luck with trying to stay on here and stuff! We've missed you <3
I'm so glad you didn't go through with it
We'd miss you too much QmQ
Glad to know you're ok
Well not 110% ok you know but
Not dead that's something LOL
But in all seriousness, yeah, talk to your pals about it too, not just your parents!
Also, good luck with trying to stay on here and stuff! We've missed you <3